This loneliness is really getting me. Bakit ganon? It's been more than two years pero I still feel something for him. Hindi tama 'yun. I feel stupid! I should've move on already... =( Hindi naman siya ang ideal guy ko... He's very far from being my ideal guy pero bakit ganito pa rin yung nararamdaman ko?... Aaaah! If only I have the courage to just cut all our communications... Pero sa t'wing nagdedecide ako na hindi ko na siya ite-text, ayun, I still text him 'pag nagtext na siya... Waaah! Hindi talaga tama yung nararamdman ko. There's no way na magiging tama 'to...
I told my friends na naka-move on na 'ko. Totoo naman in some way, pero in a more deeper sense, andun pa rin yung pananabik ko sa kanya. 'Pag nangangarap ako, kasama pa rin siya. And no matter how hard I try to make a faceless man in my mind, siya pa rin ang nag-a-appear... I'm so hopeless! =(
Hindi kaya dahil 'to sa wala pa 'kong new guy? Someone na mapagbabalingan ko ng attention ko? But then kung attention lang din naman ang pag-uusapan, I have my "pharmacy student life" to (supposedly) distract me from all this "him" loneliness syndrome...
This has to end... (big sigh)
> I wrote this last night... And kanina, I saw his status in facebook. He's in a relationship... Akala ko ok lang sa 'kin na may bago siya (hello! two years na!) pero kahit papaano, the pain is still there... masakit pa rin tulad ng dati...
Oh well...
I told my friends na naka-move on na 'ko. Totoo naman in some way, pero in a more deeper sense, andun pa rin yung pananabik ko sa kanya. 'Pag nangangarap ako, kasama pa rin siya. And no matter how hard I try to make a faceless man in my mind, siya pa rin ang nag-a-appear... I'm so hopeless! =(
Hindi kaya dahil 'to sa wala pa 'kong new guy? Someone na mapagbabalingan ko ng attention ko? But then kung attention lang din naman ang pag-uusapan, I have my "pharmacy student life" to (supposedly) distract me from all this "him" loneliness syndrome...
This has to end... (big sigh)
> I wrote this last night... And kanina, I saw his status in facebook. He's in a relationship... Akala ko ok lang sa 'kin na may bago siya (hello! two years na!) pero kahit papaano, the pain is still there... masakit pa rin tulad ng dati...
Oh well...