Giving Up

I'll be giving up... I feel like I've already spent a big part of my time waiting... I showed my love, care and support but nothing good happened... I tried to be patient... I tried to wait... but I realize, how long am I going to wait- for nothing? I'm getting tired...

He knows that I love him... He knows that I care for him... But, is he aware that I'm hurting? He can't hear my cry... He can't feel my pain... only because, he doesn't care... I asked myself, "Why are you still waiting?"... The answer? I'm not sure... Is it because I still feel like it's not yet the end of our story? I don't know... I really don't know...

I've read articles, poems and quotations about fighting for love, about holding on... but I've also read writings about giving up and letting go... the latter struck me the most... Has the time come for me to let go? for me to give up waiting?

Earlier today, I've read a blog post about letting go... I looked back, I became aware that he hasn't showed any act of love nor concern to me in the past three months of waiting... not even as a friend.. I was neglected...
And now I think it's time to conclude it... I give up... I'm done... And I'm setting myself free...

He kissed me!

He kissed me..... in my dreams... hehe.. Yeah, napanaginipan ko nanaman siya (mr. c)... I can barely remember some of the details. Ang naaalala ko lang ay yung nakasakay kami sa jeep with some friends... I was wearing a very cute green floral dress (ang cute ng dress.. promise!)^^,) tapos bumaba kami sa may U.N... Naglalakad kami, tapos naka-akbay pa siya sa akin... At ayun, he kissed me IN MY LIPS!!! I won't go into details na ha... kasi... wala lang.. hehe.. basta wag na yung details ng kissing scene (???).. hehe.. Grabe talaga... He's been haunting me in my dreams!!! May ibig sabihin kaya yun? o baka kasi iniisip ko lang siya kaya ko siya napapanaginipan??? Either way, ayoko na siyang mapanaginipan... Goshness!!! Or at least kahit makita ko lang siya sa dreams ko... wag na yung may halik pa... nakaw naman!!! hehe.. Nagmu-move on na nga eh.. tsk! tsk! haha..

Kung makikita ko siya sa dreams ko, e sana yung matino naman. hehe.. Actually, sa panaginip ko na lang naaalala yung mukha niya kasi malapit ko ng makalimutan yung face niya.. swear!!! parang di ko na matandaan yung face niya talaga.. haha.. ewan ko ba.. ayoko naman tignan yung picture niya noh! ayoko rin naman siya makita.. Saka na lang siguro pagnakapag-move on na talaga ako.. (pag may lalaki na ulit.. haha.. joke lang!) haay naku! Pero one thing's for sure... I want him to be a better man.. I mean, I want him to change.. Kasi he has some qualities na, you know, hindi kagandahan... Hindi ko na sasabihin kung anu-ano yun... But I'm pretty sure na he is a good man... I can feel it... Though I want to be the one to change him, I can't because he won't let me (enough said)... He just won't let me.. We're not friends.. We're just acquaintances... So I'm hoping na he will have true friends who will change him for the better... =) Kasi, all I can do is to pray for him... =)


O siya sige, baka maging lalong madrama pa 'to... hehe.. ^^,)

Pasaway Girls!!!

They are my stunning friends. Take a look!

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We're lovely, right? haha... Not just that, we're also smart and talented... What more can you ask for? haha.. (kapal!)

Pasaway Girls with Ryan...

Pasaway Girls with 'te Micah...

Sa Wakas!

Hay salamat at may school na rin ako na papasukan this school year... Nagpunta ako ng UP kanina at ayun pasado nga ako... Dininig ni God yung prayers ko.. Magpapa-dental na lang ako at xray bago mag-enroll sa June 6... ^^,)

Naku, pahirapan ang aral dun sa UP kaya good luck na lang sa'kin... hehe.. pero I think kaya ko naman... konting sipag lang katapat niyan.. haha..

Basta go lang ng go! Hindi naman ako papabayaan ni God e.. hehe.. ^^,)

O xa sige.. un lang.. ^^,)

What's with the EMO people?

They're popular now a days, right? Kahit saan ka tumingin, you'll see them wearing black clothes with a long side-swept bangs and of course, the very thick black eye liner. And duh?! What's with the scar on their wrist?!

Di ba EMO used to be a music genre? What happened? Naging fashion trend na ngayon?... A lot of people say na what we called emos now a days are just posers kasi daw masyado nilang ine-exaggerate yung pagiging emotional... You'll see their pictures in the net na sobrang problemado yung itsura... Sometimes, they took picture of their wrist na may laslas.. (I have one word for that: eew!).. You'll see them wearing thick eye liner... Yung mga buhok din nila nakasaklob na sa mukha nila (ang sarap gupitin!) And yung itim na kasuotan nila.. (What's wrong with them?) Kainit-init dito sa Pilipinas tapos magsusuot sila ng all-black... (sheeesh)... Mukha silang basura, akala nila bagay sa kanila yung emo look e hindi naman.. They look trash to me.. Also, they tell the world na problemado sila, na walang nakakaintindi sa kanila.. tapos pagtinanong mo naman kung may problema, ayaw sabihin... Kaya sila naa-outcast kasi inaa-outcast nila yung sarili nila mismo... (sheeeesh) Don't they have a life to live? Life is too beautiful para maging super emotional... I mean, kahit ako may mga problems ako pero I don't think na aabot ako sa point na maglalaslas ako.. Gosh, I love my skin noh! Tsaka why would I harm myself diba? And one more thing, emo (posers) people always talk about death... Ano ba, katapusan na ba ng mundo??? Ang sarap- sarap kayang mabuhay! (sheeesh)

Ang masama pa, karamihan ng emo dito sa Pilipinas ay mga teens... Worst, yung iba hindi alam kung ano yung tunay na ibig sabihin ng emo.. sunod lang ng sunod sa iba.. Akala nga maganda, e ang pangit naman tignan.. duh!

Sa Mexico nga, binubugbog yung mga emo e.. Bakit ba naman kasi ayaw nilang sumali sa mainstream!... Sa ibang bansa, tumataas yung bilang ng mga emo teens na nagsusuicide.. tsk! tsk! kawawa naman...

Emo people should wake up! Wala naman silang magandang naitutulong sa society eh.. Siguro sa music genre meron pero sa lipunan, naku, isang malaking WALA... Instead of being so depress bakit hindi na lang nila tawanan yung mga problema nila... Problems come and go.. And hindi naman magbibigay si God ng problems sa atin kung hindi natin kayang i-solve... hmmmmph...

Siguro tama nga si kuya pach (from Candymag.com) isa siyang teentalker sa candy.. Ang sabi niya, we should DISC the emo (posers) people.. D-discriminate, I-isolate, S-stigmatize and C-condemn...


YUN LANG...

2 more days!

Waaah.. Dalawang araw na lang at malalaman ko na yung results sa UP... Gosh! Even though sinabi na sa akin ng cousin ko na tanggap na ko, still, I need to confirm it para sure na sure na talaga, di ba? Sana talaga pasok ako sa UP... ^^,) Every night nagdadasal ako kay God na ibigay niya sa akin 'to. Mag-aaral talaga ako ng mabuti para makamit ko ang mga pangarap ko. Hindi lang 'to para sa future ko kundi para din sa family ko, especially to my mama and papa... ^^,)


Oh well... sana talaga.. ^^,)

Gusto ko na din magpasukan kasi tinatamad na ko dito sa bahay. Nagsasawa na din ako magsurf sa net. Wala na kong magawa.. Haaaay! Konting araw na lang... ^^,)

naku sige.. wala na kong ma-type.. I'm running out of thoughts... ^^,) hanggang sa susunod na lang ulit na post.. ^^,)

May Galak

MAY GALAK, MAY TUWA
MAY SAYA SA PILING NG DIYOS
SAPAGKAT HIRAP NG PUSO
AY NAGLALAHO

MAY AWIT MAY SAYAW
MAY PAPURI PARA SA DIYOS
NA HANDOG NG PUSONG
PINAGPALA NIYANG LUBOS

KORO:

HANDOG NIYA AY KAPAYAPAAN
HANDOG NIYA AY KAGALAKAN HANDOG NIYA AY KALAKASAN
SA BAWAT PUSONG NAGMAMAHAL
KAYA ANG AWIT NG PAPURI AWIT NG PASASALAMAT
AT ANG AWIT NG PAGSAMBA
AY PARA LANG SA KANYA

My Lovable Noah

Look! Isn't he sooo cute? He's my youngest brother, Noah... Even though he can be so naughty, still I love him.. I drew Barney for him... Not that he is a fan or something but because I find it easier to draw.. hehe.. ^^,)

Oops moment at Padre Faura!

Okay.. Here it goes... hehe..

Last Monday, May 19, I went to EAC to get my honorable dismissal... I was wearing a brown sleeveless top, skinny jeans and my brand new brown rounded-toe wedges... At first, okay naman ako... Feel na feel ko yung outfit ko that time.. Poise na poise ako you see.. hehe.. Then habang naglalakad ako papuntang EAC Registrar, nafi-feel ko nang parang natatanggal yung shoes ko (which I don't understand, kasi sakto naman yung shoes ko sa akin).. So what I did, binagalan ko na lang yung lakad ko.. Nagpunta muna ako ng rest room para ayusin yung sarili ko kasi super init that time at mukha na kong haggard.. Paglabas ko ng rest room nakita ko pa yung crush ko, si kuya *toooooot*.. haha.. (sayang lang di kami nagkasabay pauwi.. tsk!)..

anyway, edi yun.. kinuha ko na yung honorable dismissal ko.. while walking, natatanggal nanaman yung shoes ko.. pero tuloy pa din ako sa paglakad kasi hindi pa nman totally natatanggal eh.. hindi pa rin nawawala yung poise ko (well, at least that's what I think).. kahit na mukhang nahihirapan na ko.. Gosh!

Earlier that day, my mom told me na pumunta ng Mercury Drug sa may Padre Faura para bumili ng gamot.. Edi yun punta ako ng Mercury Drug.. sobrang nahihirapan na kong maglakad dahil sa sapatos ko.. pero keri lang.. sige lang.. feel na feel ko pa rin maglakad at ang outfit ko.. hanggang sa yun, malapit na kong tumawid ng TULUYAN NG NATANGGAL yung sapatos ko.. ang ichura ko pa that time.. Gosh!!! mukhang matitipalok na hindi mo maintindihan.. super nakakahiya talaga.. hindi na ko tumingin sa likod ko kung may nakakita dahil sa sobrang kahihiyan.. nagdiretso na lang ako sa mercury drug.. at hirap pa rin akong maglakad.. Goshness!!! Ang pawis ko grabe pagpasok ko ng Mercury.. Basang- basa ang panyo ko!!! waaaaaaah!!!


At yun, dali-dali akong sumakay ng jeep pagkatapos sa Mercury...



Lesson learned: WAG MAG-INARTE HABANG NAGLALAKAD.... at MAGDALA PALAGI NG EXTRA SLIPPERS...

Love One Another

Note: This is just my OPINION..

"Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God." - 1 John 4:7

"And this commandment we have from Him: whoever loves God must also love his brother."-
1 John 4:21

"In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven."- Matthew 5:16

"And we urge you, brothers, admonish the idle, encourage the fainthearted, help the weak, be patient with them all."- 1 Thessalonians 5:14



The verses mentioned above may have come from different books in the Bible but they show us only one thing, and that is to love one another.
The love of our brothers or what we called Agape is the kind of love that Jesus wants us to show and express. To love is the greatest commandment of our Lord. And thus, it is very important for us to obey it because it is the very root of all the good things in our world. Without love, there will also be no harmony and happiness. Without love there will be sadness and chaos. So for us to live a harmonious life, we also have to live in love.
The problem with some of us is that we only love those people who are close to us. But how about those poor people in the dark streets of the urban areas? How about those people who are living in the desperate areas? Don't they have the rights to our love?
You see, God created us and entrusted us the task to take care of one another and to love one another. But how come there are millions of people who are being neglected and desperately seeking for love?
I believe that for us to solve our problems in poverty and human rights abuses, we simply have to awaken our inner soul and let ourselves rekindle the love for our brothers. There are a lot of ways to show them our care, even the simplest way will do as long as we are doing it from our heart.
Let's start with the rich people. And I mean ALL the wealthy people. Why, they have lots of money so they have the perfect ability to help the needy. How?! There are millions of ways! Why don't they start by organizing a charity and giving money and food donations? Of course they can't just give and give forever. We don't want those poor to be a parasite right? So maybe, they can give them jobs or maybe teach them entrepreneurship? They can also start a non-profit organization about health, education, values and human rights. See?
Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! I know that there are already organizations and charities about poverty and the like but then only few participates. And only few were aided. Why don't rich people set aside their own welfare and think of others first? Hear them out! Why don't they give the beggars food, clothes and shelter instead of driving them away? If only ALL of them will not just love their luxurious houses, cars and clothes but also their crying and dying brothers in the streets.
Now for the middle class and the so-so poor people, they may not be financially well-off but it doesn't mean that they can't help others. How? Well, by simply assisting others to do their jobs and encouraging them to find hope and strength in everything they do will definitely do. It doesn't have to involve money and be complicated. Just a word of encouragement and enlightenment will certainly make a difference. Average people can also participate in organizations and charities by assisting the organizers. They can prepare food, help to pack things and gather and manage the participants. Also, instead of leaving the left overs in a fast- food restaurant, they can give them (of course only those edible ones) to the street children. And they can also give those street people old clothes and other old usable things.
See? There are plenty of ways to help and show love. We may not be able to help them financially but physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually, we can help and support each other.
And the last is the VERY poor people. And when I say VERY, they are the ones who can barely eat three times a day; they are the ones who don't have a good shelter and clothing- the real unfortunate people.
Of course they can also help by encouraging others too. They can also strengthen the soul of their fellowmen. They can help the rich and the average people by simply participating in whatever they do. Poor people must appreciate the help they are receiving and they, themselves, must also do their best to uplift their lives. (but of course in a good way!)
Like what I've said earlier helping and loving others doesn't always involve money. It can also be in a form of giving joy and encouraging the fainthearted. We don't have to have lots of money to love others. By hearing each others out, understanding and helping each other, we can already express our love.
Our world is socially divided. And we have to change it by expressing brotherly love to each and everyone. Brotherhood, happiness, trust, harmony, peace and everything good in the world comes up with love. If we give joy to others, we also give joy to our God. And if we love our fellowmen, we also love our God.


1 Juan 3:18
"Mga munting anak, huwag tayong umibig sa salita, ni sa dila, kundi sa gawa at katotohanan."

In my Dreams

Oh gosh!!! I dreamt of Mr. C thrice.. Naku, honestly, ayoko siyang mapanaginipan for some reasons I don't want to (or even can't) explain...

The first dream's setting was inside Mcdonald's.. I don't know what branch basta ang alam ko nasa loob kami ng Mcdo ordering some food... then unfortunately, yung oorderin dapat ni Mr. C parang out of stock na or something... but instead of changing his order, he chose not to order na lang... aalis na lang daw siya... tapos ayun, he said something to me pero hindi ko siya naintindihan... I don't even know kung saan siya pupunta.. Bibigyan niya dapat ako ng 100 pesos (pandagdag ata sa pera ko which is 100 pesos din) pero tinanggihan ko.. sobrang weird!!! tapos yun, I felt bad kasi iniwan niya ko dun... Buti na lang two of my high school friends entered Mcdo kaya I was relieved dahil may kasama na ko... But then, sa sobrang tagal kong nakapila, naubos yung time ko.. kaya isang regular fries lang yung na-order ko... I felt so bad talaga that time because: (1) Mr. C left me and (2) Fries lang yung na-order ko!!! hmmmph..

Now for my second dream... It happened outside our house.. It was raining very hard and Mr. C and I were sitting in our garage... Hindi ko alam kung bakit andun si Mr. C kasi I don't see any reason kung bakit siya pupunta sa 'min... Anyway, we were talking about US... I think tinanong ko siya kung bakit siya nakipagbreak.. as usual, ayaw niyang sabihin.. sabi lang niya secret daw, family reason daw.. then bigla niyang sinabi na ang *anga *anga niya daw... nagreregret daw siya (I believe he's regretting about our break up)... He's crying that time (which I find very unusual kasi he once told me na hindi siya iiyak ng dahil lang sa babae..) What I did, I hugged him then I told him na everything's going to be okay na hindi pa tapos ang lahat (about us, I think).. haaaay!!!

Lastly for my third dream (hopefully the last)... Mr. C asked me to go with him.. ako naman pumayag.. So, sumakay kami ng jeep at bumaba sa may Sta. Cruz.. then naglakad kami hanggang sa makarating kami sa isang subdivision na bilang na bilang mo sa mga daliri ang bilang ng mga bahay.. (siguro bago lang yung subdivision na 'yun)... holding hands kami habang naglalakad at ang higpit higpit ng hawak niya sa akin.. seemed like ayaw niya kong bitawan... then may group of girls na nag-appear.. one of the girls pat me in my back, so napalingon ako then she asked me something which hindi ko naintindihan.. si Mr. C yung sumagot sa tanong niya.. then sabi nung girl, wow daw kasi siya daw "kuya" lang ang tawag niya sa sponsor ng 300.. I believe na ang sinagot ni Mr. C sa girl e girlfirend niya 'ko.. (holding hands pa rin kami)... Now, I'm confused about this 300 thingy.. until pumasok kami sa isang building na wala pang pintura... It turns out that 300 is a program sponsored by Mr. C... Pagpasok namin sa building, I saw an organ.. tapos sinabi ko kay Mr. C na namimiss ko ang mag-piano... Gusto ko sanang pindutin yung mga keys kaso may narinig akong natugtog ng isa pang piano.. I looked further inside the room then nalaman ko na may piano recital pala.. I think 300 is all about piano recital... meron akong nakitang program dun, green pa nga yung papel which is fave color ni Mr. C... While we're standing, Mr. C leaned on me as if he's trying to kiss me, so what I did, I leaned too.. tapos parang nagalit siya or nainis or whatsoever.. sabi niya bakit daw ako palaging ganun (nagli-leaned back) wag daw ganun kasi maraming tao... (pero siya gusto akong i-kiss!! hmmph!) then yun hinayaan ko na lang.. tapos nag-lean ulit siya sa akin.. this time hindi ako nag-lean back.. ayun, he kissed my cheeks MANY times... (kilig.. haha..) To my surprise, some of my high school classmates were also there... ('di ko lam kung bakit) After a while, naupo na kami.. may pinakita siya sa aking books about piano and music.. tinetest niya ako kung knowledgeable ba talaga ako sa piano.. sa totoo lang hindi naman talaga ako dalubhasa sa pagtugtog.. nag-aral ako pero hindi ko natapos yung piano lesson ko.. kaya hindi ko nasagot yung mga tanong ni Mr. C.. nagkukulitan kami ng biglang tumama yung siko niya sa upuan.. tapos bigla siyang nod ng nod as if he's saying "ewan ko"... at that time, ang unang pumasok sa isip ko e gusto na niyang mag-give up sa relationship namin.. I glanced over the window, I noticed na gabi na pala.. When I glanced back, WALA na si Mr. C sa upuan niya.. tapos na rin yung program that time.. hinanap ko siya sa labas pero wala siya dun.. akala ko kausap niya yung mga babae kanina na tumapik sa likod ko, pero ang kausap nila e yung classmate kong lalaki... tumingin ulit ako sa loob pero sobrang dami ng tao, hindi ko siya makita.. Lumabas na lang ako with my hs classmates, bitbit ko yung program tsaka payong na black (wala nman akong dalang payong nung pumunta kami dun)... biglang may tumakbo sa gilid papuntang talahiban, akala ko si Mr. C, pero hindi kasi naka-pink yung lalaki.. si Mr. C naka-black.. hanggang sa 'yun, umuwi ako ng 'di siya kasama.. =(


o di ba? pati sa panaginip ko INIWAN ako.. How I wish talaga na that would be the last time na mapanaginipan ko siya..

Legend: Mr. C= x man.. (PM me if you don't know!)

Boredom is killing me!!!

Yeah, it's just an exaggeration.. kasi naman di ba? super nakakatamad na talaga sa bahay... How I wish na bumilis ang takbo ng araw at mag-June na agad.. para schooling days na.. nyahahaha... ^^,) wala na kasi akong magawa sa bahay.. good thing we subscribed to Smart Bro, kaya I always spent my afternoons in front of my laptop... at ayun, palagi akong present sa Friendster at TeenTalk... ^^,)

Aside from surfing the net, puro nood na lang ako ng TV, especially during night time... buti na lang may cable kami kaya hindi lang sa ABS-CBN at GMA naikot ang mundo ko.. nyahahaha...

Hmmmm.. di ba nakakatamad talaga? Paggising ko sa umaga> kakain ako, then nood TV, tapos take a bath, kain ng lunch, take a nap, surf the net, kain ng snacks, nood TV, kain ng dinner, nood TV ulit, tapos tulog na.. How boring noh? hehe.. pero syempre, hindi naman totally araw- araw ay ganun ang takbo ng buhay ko.. Sometimes naman, naalis ako ng bahay.. hehe.. hindi ko naman ata hahayaan ang sarili ko na mabulok na lang sa bahay..

Nga pala, naglilinis din ako ng kwarto ko pero minsan- minsan lang.. hehe.. syempre, pagtinamaan ako ng sakit ko na katamaran, mahirap na! nyahahaha...

O sya sige.. next time na lang ulit.. ^^,)

To my dearest

This past few months I've been engaged to a lot of thinking, especially about you. I can't hide to myself that I still love you and I am still wanting and needing you. It's very hard for me because even though I keep on convincing myself that I've moved on, I know to myself that I haven't. I'm sorry if I'm saying this to you. I just don't know what else to do. I'm very confuse. Confuse in the sense of I know that we're over but I just don't feel like it. I'm sensing a little piece of hope about us but in the way things are happening right now, it is just so impossible knowing that you already have moved on. It hurts to think about that honestly. Actually just a thought of you hurts me. That's why I hate thinking of you and I hate myself even more because I can still remember every details of our shared moments- from Sept. 3 down to Feb. 7. Physically I look fine but emotionally and mentally are different- way different.

One more thing I hate myself for is that I failed to show you how much I love you and how much you mean to me. I failed to love you in the best way I can. And I really don't like it. I'm scared about loving too much and getting less in return. That's very selfish of me and I hate it! But the thing is the break-up just came so unexpectedly...

I'm finding so much courage in writing (typing) this message to you because I'm pretty sure that I won't be seeing you for a long time or maybe forever. April 5, that's the last time I saw you and probably that WILL be the last time I'd be seeing you.

Though I still love you, I'm aware that you won't be needing me anymore. I'm just going to continue to love you without getting any in return. I'll love you in a very silent way. Though it's only one-sided, it doesn't matter. What matters is that I care for you. I'm not pathetic to think that no one will rescue me from my downfall, of course someone will but until then I'll be loving you in a very very silent way that only I can know and feel.

I'm always here for you. Please do remember that.

Dear John by Nicholas Sparks

For the second time, natapos ko ulit ang Dear John.. Gosh! super ganda talaga niya, especially in the latter part. John Tyree is such a gentleman.. He really loves Savannah to the point na he gave up his love for her just to see her happy.. =)

I cried when his father died.. He 's such a great man knowing that he is somewhat mentally retarded.. He had raised a very great man..

Savannah and John's love for each other is very real and very sweet.. So sad nga lang kasi mahal pa rin nila ang isa't- isa pero they're not meant to be together.. =(

Ooooh! I really really love Nicholas Sparks's novels.. <3 It's a must-read.. =)

Missing him... Duh!!!

Duh.. I'm missing him again and there's nothing I can do. I guess for him, I'm just one of those forgotten memories.. Wishing and wanting to be reminisced..

Hay naku! What's with the drama??!!

I know that I'm better off without him, so what's the fuss? School is coming and I'm sure that my mind will be preoccupied again by school works added by stress.. sheeesh... I can do better... I'm pretty sure about that... =) There are a lot of things this world has to offer.. There will be greater chances for me in this life that will make me a stronger woman.. a better and successful woman.. =)


just a thought.. ^^,)

School is fast approaching..

Yeah! School is fast approaching! However, wala pa akong school... haha.. Gosh, I still don't know where to study. Hopefully, this last week of May, ma-finalize ko na.. haha.. pretty weird huh??

Vacation day is getting boring and more boring.. I have nothing to do at home and it's so hot... I can't stand the heat.. Good thing according to PAGASA two typhoons will be visiting our country.. haha..

okay, now I just ran out of thoughts... =)

High school friends

Last April 19, my high school friends and I had an outing. We rented a private pool for us to have FUN!!! =)



Here are some pics! =)





















Thoughts...















Some people aren't just meant to be... Some says hello, then later on bids goodbye... It hurts when the one you love left you... It hurts even more if there's no proper explanations why he left... But sometimes all you have to do is to be brave enough to accept the heartaches and let go even if it is causing you so much pain... Sometimes you just have to realize that your life do not revolve to only one person, that your life is worth living rather than being messed up with love... All you have to do is to pray and ask for God's guidance. He knows better. He has a better future for us... He will never let us down... =)